my husband says to me right now ‘it’s so cool you are on a mac’ and he shares with me when he got his first job as a graphic designer he had never worked on a computer graphically. he blew the company away with his portfolio and creativity. they told him they need someone like him in their company, with creativity. soon therafter he wasn’t a team player because they started to tell him to shave daily and working with the light off in his office was an issue and there was a girl who was hired as an office manager who stripped every ounce of creativity - he says ’she was a buzz kill, there was not one thing sexy about that woman and she knew it.’ yet if he saw her today he would be as nice as he could be, it was a good experience, very good experience, he shares. and he left because he wanted a change, she came down on him hard, for (sigh) everything from coming in 3 minutes late (he would ride his bike into work) to little things not worth mentioning…his office had no windows, and he was burnt out — done.
Our weekend together, was so sweet and relaxing. 11 years into this marriage together. our backgrounds? matt graduating as a fashion merchandising & marketing major and me as a early childhood education major ….. he now a porn director, videographer photographer and continually creating graphics and recalling how he used to dig ditches for a living and when he went off on his own he did it on his own as OUTHOUSE GRAPHICS when he sat in front of champion sportswear executives — in winston salem at the time, he explains that NC is big into textiles and tobacco…and he secured his first self-employment freelance job - the biggest paying job at the time. interesting to learn about my husband more and more as we continue to grow together and individually.
now i am a living a life long dream, i am a therapist — not a physical or occupational, yet a ….yoga….therapist. i am currently learning from physical therapists — muscle energy, manual therapy…i am freakin learning to walk again and its challenging and i love it, along with writing with my left hand (matt too - who is drawing/sketching again, by the way, as of yesterday). my heart races in excitement of the path we are on, lifelong learning — as i am about to turn 38 this week….feeling more in my body than ever before. releasing tmj, aligning spine and finding neutral for pelvis and head. accepting posterior/anterior rotations in my pelvis, rotation in c7, l4/l5 degeneration, stuck si joint and unstable sacrum - OH my left leg is longer than my right leg, so today i wore my 1st lift in my shoe, feeling new muscles….
well, its not all about me. i know i am not at the center of the universe.
we do want to express gratitude for this home we adorn and constantly upkeep, for our health & happiness - this new macbook pro i am learning to love (as i prepare to ship my acer laptop and our sony trv950 video camera off to webmaster wulf to play with and work towards building up our video conent in our sites).
AND now, to the clients coming to my mind….GEOFF, feeling very sexy and seductive, i slipped into a dom necklace, red lipstick, black sheer pantyhose, stiletto heels SHOULDER LENGTH WHITE GLOVES and laid matt down to tickle and tease him. we are slowly making our way into filming for you again.
AND i happily held/wore the mask mary jane gave me - from new orleans, which i will wear while telling RICHARD to GET OFF while i do not masturbate or touch my pussy, talking openly kinky to him about private things he likes to share with me!!!
my boobs feel good and full. i am wearing pantyhose WITH pink cotton thin panties underneath - which i took off and smelled the crotch of. i get turned on smelling my own panties, KINKY, right? funny my macbook keeps sliding down my legs now that i am wearing pantyhose. i’ve now slipped into a pink tank top to keep my chest warm. matt is warm…wearing only a blue sleeveless shirt i love on him and a towel on his waist, which he loves…to wear a towel and free ball it.
ahhhh, breath — yesterday i slipped into my new bc and laid on the bottom of the pool face down, without a mask to feel my breath and body with eyes closed and the ability to breathe in my mouth out my nose.
here we are now watching a porn video we filmed of former models nikki & shell, who have come and gone from our little piece of the net. she has since graduated with her masters in marriage counseling…and they’ve been married 16+ years now. so fucking hot to watch another mans wife suck her husbands BIG cock, while i take pictures and matt films. we work together. we watch couples have sex in front of us, exhibitionism, voyeurism, eroticism.
she spreads her legs and we see a shaved pussy - and then we see his wedding ring as she rises up to open her mouth as he strokes his cock …until he cums in her mouth and stays hard and she sucks it some more. this couple turns me on because of the connection they have, the sexual energy they share. she is now sitting with her legs spread wide and he stands over her (okay, i always get turned on when a guy is standing over me with a cock near my face) and there i am i taking photos, matt films. (and i like to stand over a guys face as well, to have my pussy eaten).
HA! spontaneous moment as matt kicks me in the had as he stops stroking his cock to get up and turn the light on so he can see me more clearly…so i blindfold myself to go within and open without.
and geoff, daisy is sleeping deep next to us on shaken out double layer dog beds…she is clean - she took a few long walks today on the street at the beach, she swam in the ocean…her coat is looking beautiful these days.
DJ — you are never a pest, i love it when you email me. i am ready to be dunked in the hot tub, fully clothed in the fun digs you sent me, including the kick ass brand new platform knee high boots.
right now i am in a position where matt has my pantyhose covered feet close to his shaved balls. a turn on for us both. what turns us on the most is when the other one of us is truly turned on….
i can still feel the red lipstick on my lips as matt begins to fantasize asking me ‘ would i be turned on letting another man look at me in this position, touch me like this ‘ and i change the subject….seeing my older computer and matt’s too - big monitors on the nikki & shell video we are watching. and we are a bit blown away that we used to film with our bedroom doors wide open and video lights on — our backdoor neighbor must have loved us. hes moved on but keeps in touch from central america.
gotta pee…should i go in the pantyhose and panties? soak them and remove them?